Could you fill the empty space inside of me?
Make me change into something more than I could be
On my own?
Could you take the pain out of my heart?
I’d forget it all if I was smart…
But something deep inside of me
won’t let go no matter how much I plead.
Everything I am, I’ve always been that way:
all alone, talking too loud, feeling afraid.
It doesn’t matter how many years go by.
It doesn’t matter how many tears are cried.
I hold on with a grip that is so strong,
hating myself, not admitting something’s wrong.
And water can’t wash away what I am
Nor thoughts that pour out like a broken dam
Past my mouth, past my eyes and I drown.
It all wraps around me tight and holds me down.
I die a little more inside.
But never change, more from fear than pride.
What will I be if I don’t feel like this?
Now that I’m gone, will I be missed.
I never wanted to be free.
I only wanted love that would bind me
to a place, to a someone good,
For him to change me if he could
into a thing that he could hold close…
into the thing he wanted the most.